Watched suckseed with jy today.
Because the timeslot was too early, we are the only two person in the cinema! Haha.
The show was lame, but it talks abt the value of friendship.
I've always placed friendship as one of the most impt thing in my life
But I feel that these few days im more like a loner.
I seldom talk to my meta friends despite being in the same class.
Seldom arrange for outings with friends because work has occupied quite a lot of my time.hopefully my friends won't forget me.
The challenge ahead is going to get tougher. Can i overcome them?
One of my student who never passed maths after p3 msg me that she passed her maths prelim.
Frm the msg she sounds v.happy, im happy for her too.
There is a sense of achievement n satisfaction that i got.
I told myself i will stop giving tuition because its too taxing for me.
But will i miss this kind of enjoyment that work gives?

I feel so useless.
Can't help my partner during coding at all .
Seems like I wasted money on sl314 cause I cannot rmb a single shit.
It sucks being a leech in a team because I lack the knowledge to contribute.
Shall read up this wkend since im not working.
Hopefully god will guide me through.
I know he will.

Really enjoyed myself today.
No sch, no proj mtg, no tuition.
I got to spend this lovely day with my beloved friends n family.
This is a kind of life im looking for.
Simple yet hard to achieve dream because everyone is just too busy.
But its these little things that make me happy.
Life can be simple if man isn't greedy...

Full day in school...
All the way from 830 till 1130.
U can imagine how tired I was.
But nevertheless, I manage to finish quite some stuff which is good. Haha.
Life is going to get more hectic from now on. ..
Looking at my friends who are aiming to get into dean lister I envy them
Because such dreams seems almost impossible for me.
Too quiet n stupid to be one alr.
I just hope I can pull my gpa up.
Hopefully its a reachable goal .

reality is cruel.
i guess everyone knows this, just that sometimes we refuse to admit it.
because our inner self wishes to live in denial.
thinking that this world is a wonderful place.
well is it? there are ppl suffering all over the world.
every second someone is dying of hunger.
ppl are killing one another out of jealousy, hatred, love, money etc.
ppl dying for fame, fortune and position.
is this the world that we have been striving to live towards?
i hope not. because if this is the case, we would have reached the end of human's life.
when everyone starts to tear down their masks, i feel as though im living in a foreign land.
i dunno who i can trust, who i can believe in.
who gave ur the authorities to judge others when GOD haven't even judged you?
the more u judge others, the more i despise you.

maybe my friends would be puzzled abt this post but well, there are things that im not in any authority to say anything but my take is, even if my results are like shit, i know ive tried my best and that's enough. Being smart does not give you the authority to judge others. who says people who cant get good gpa, good class participation cannot do well. im gonna prove you wrong.

heartstrings ended. it was a nice drama.
too bad the ending was a bit too short. hope that there will be a part two! =)
got contacted by one of my past student's mum that she wants me back to give tuition.
alr 3 students on hand, with a part time job...can i still cope?
i knw it might seem as though im courting death, but i accepted that request.
maybe this is not a wise choice, i shall just see how it goes.
anyway all these tortures will end by end sept.
i will pull through it. will i?

Tired. Really damn tired or running ard to work.
Handling three tuition with sch is diff.
But I will persevere, in another mth all this will end.
Hope I can cope throughout this one mth!
Maybe im just too weak.
If so many ppl can balance work n study, why can't I?
Am I the pampered weakling that gives up easily?
Maybe my life has been too good all these years.
Perhaps this will be the most tiring part of my life but this shall also be the life that will bring back memories of hardship...

had a nice day celebrating my cousin's bday.
it was nice not because of the food, not because of the ambience but because everyone was there.
it might sound funny, but its been damn long since all of us gathered as 6.
because there were some disputes between 2 of my cousins, they always refuse to come out tgther with us.
so i was really glad that they agreed to come out with us for this celebration though i know this time both of them came out cause i helped them out with their reports and they felt indebted to me i suppose. haha.
the time spent might be short, but it brings back lots of memories.
how we used to eat tgther, played at the archade today, joke n laugh together.
these are the memories that will not fade, but will always be there...

Today was a rather fruitful day. Met two cliques of ppl, my meta n bgs friends.
The lunch with bgs mates was simple but I was glad that we finally meet up after so long.
Its just so hard to find time to sit down n talk tgther.
But im glad we set aside time to meet one another.
Slack the rest of the afternoon in sch till dinner.
Meta grp is still as funny as usual.
Had a great dinner n a fantastic time playing in archade
Come to think of it I haven played in arcade for quite a long time.
Meetings like this really brighten up the day.
Though I feel Sian of starting sch, I know this cant be avoided.
Sch will start no matter what.

Now I got my lomo camera I shall learn to use it to take beautiful pictures for my HK trip in dec:)

Had a fruitful time in church today.
I know that im an individualistic Christian, which is not a v.good thing.
But I just dunno why I don't like to speak much in church.
The sermon today was pretty humorous.
But he did a great job cause I think everyone enjoyed the sermon.
As Christians, we often forget abt Christ, forgot the sufferings he suffered for us.
And ppl tend to do good things for a reason, either to gain good karma or some benefits in return. But god taught us to share unconditioned love to the people around us just like how he loved us unconditionally.
Maybe its this reason that inspire me to volunteers in diff fields.
To share gods love. Now i have to learn how to spread gods love to the people ard me...

Slacking at home these few days.
I didnt really get any chance to rest this hols so these few days are my rest:)
But its just too boring to rot at home
I know I shld have started to revise on Java n SQL, but seriously I lack the motivation to do so.
Started packing up my room.
I realized that tech advancement can be a scary thing.
Because i can do online transaction, i can actually spent near 200 bucks just in one hr! Seriously v.broke now. Lol.
And despite staying at home almost everyday, jasmine told me that i look darker! :(
Zzz. How can i whiten myself?
Sch is starting. Im filled with uncertainties. . .
Will this sem be good?

Today's national day.
Didn't go out today cause my family was intending to celebrate my dad's bdayb'day
Was so bored that I actually volunteered to help my mum in housework.
The whole family was snatching for hse work to do except my sister who was studying.
I wanted to treat my dad to the newly opened seafood restaurant at punggol since he loves seafood, but my mum suggested that we bring him to this steakhouse.
That restaurant was where they frequent during their courtship period.
Mum said dad missed that place so we went there.
My parents said that the deco didnt change, which u know how they place shld look like.
Food was just erm...average.
But its nice to see my parents talking abt their past.
Bet that place gave them lotsa memories.
Was walking ard after dinner when I spotted my cousin n their family in a dessert shop nearby!
So we went n gave a surprise attack! Haha.
How small can sg be? V.v.small.
Ate desserts before we went for a refrigerator hunt.
My parents are still waiting for each other to see who is willing to pay for the fridge. Lol. I wonder when we wld be able to get a new fridge like this.

today can be considered the first official rest day that i have.
no work, no tuition, not meeting up with friends.
SO i decided to try baking a cake for my dad's bday=)
there were many obstacles which i face, such as oven breaking down...
but nevertheless, i manage to accomplise the mission of baking one!



although it dosent look too fantastic or taste damn fantastic, its the effort and thought that i have put in to make this cake awesome! =)
hopefully my dad would appreciate it. ><
went to my grandma hse in the afternoon.
digging through the past photos when i was young, i noticed that i always wear podka dots dresses. thats cause my mum loves podka dots...
but maybe thats why after being 'forced' to wear such dresses when i was young, it makes me detest such kind of dresses when im older like now. HAHA.
but i think my looks still looks the same.. LOL.

Awesome wkend spent this wk.
Think this is one of the best part of my hols!
Spent sat night with my lovely sec best pals!
Though we might not talk to each other often, we try our best to meet up often to catch up n try new stuff whenever we can:)
Tried fat boy at joo chiat since its near to wynee's workplace.
The serving was huge! But taste was rather nice:)
We walked a lot, talked a lot.
Though there were lotsa complains, I still love their company:)
Hopefully we wld still continue to meet often after sch starts...

went to church early in the morning.
It seems as though I haven been there for long cause I missed service for two wks thanks to work. Felt so guilty.
After church I went to suntec to take a look at all the travel fairs.
Even though it was a fair, the airfares wasn't really cheap afterall.
So I decided to stick to planning free n easy tour on my own.
Got to my grandma hse and I decided to go for a haircut.
Think I cut my fringe too short alr. Looks rather nerdy. Lol.
Had YMCA comm dinner at night.
Initially I thought it was awkward for me to go since im not v.close to them and we dont have lotsa things to talk abt.
But apparently the whole dinner ended quite well esp the dessert part:)
Glad to catch up with them.

What's left is my SLC, bgs, jc clique n my meta grp gathering!
Need to meet up before my hectic sch life robs my life away!

Interesting trainer and interesting people.
today marks the last day of the training.
the trainer was, humorous as usual.
we were assigned to sit in groups today and i would say i got the most interesting one. HAHA.
seated on my right was two girls with ULTRA thick makeup.
to me, one of them even look like a barbie doll! HAHA.
to my left was two guys, both filled with vulgarities in speech. one even had tatoo almost all over his body!
it might look as though im the most decent amongst them despite us having the same age. LOL.
it kindof made me wonder. why didnt i turn out to be like them?
was it because of good upbringing? was it because i was too timid to challenge the norms like them? or was it because im too poor?
perhaps the latter is the ans.
recently there has been debates in my family.
you might be wondering. hmm, what incident can make a family quarrel?
well, its over a fridge. LOL.
because neither of my parents bear to fork out money to buy a new fridge to replace the current one which was spoilt.
sounds like a joke huh? but its real.
i volunteered to contribute some money, but was scolded too. LOL.
in the end, my parents decide to see who gives in first.
MY FAMILY IS JUST SO FUNNY ISNT IT?

went for starhub training today.. it was more interesting than the one ytd i wld say. haha.
but then again, i didnt really listen attentively cause i felt a bit sick during the second half of the session.
was on my way home when i spotted ms jasmine at the train stn.
so...i decided to give her a surprise! haha, she got a shock out of it. LOL.
gave tuition and came home to surf the net.
been too busy lately, or rather lazy so i didnt use the com often.
i saw the photos taken by my ycamp friends on their outing.
felt a bit sad n bad, bad because they asked me a couple of times but i missed their outings cause i was either having summer lessons, working or overseas in batam.
sad cause i think they got so tired till they stop asking me out alr..
looking at the fun that they had, i really envy them.
its not that i didnt wanna join them, its just that the timing just dosent match my schedule.
was thinking of joining sep tri uniy camp, but i think i have to give up that thought cause sept is the psle mth.
i have to spend more time with my students to pull them up for the last stretch.
maybe i shld learn to be a better friend, so that my friends wont forget me...

Feeling damn tired today..
Think its because Its been too long since I've attended 'lessons'.
The training really felt like a long lecture.
I yawned for a couple of times n nearly doozed off!
Despite being so bored by it, i feel that I've learnt more abt wireless network.
Went for tuition after training.
I think god really gave me a challenge.
The students that im teaching are all foundation students but this is the worse case.
I went through the mock prelim paper with the student.
Saw his ans n i got a shock.
Out of 100, he got 20+.
The most shocking thing was not the score, but his ans!
Almost all the qns asked his ans was the same. Its just a single word. Yes.
No matter what the Qn asked, the ans given is only a yes.
Can someone teach me how do i teach?
I shall try my best to push him up during this one mth that i had with him.
Hopefully i can help out...

Had a nice dinner with thomas jas n celest ytd.
Pool was simply hilarious!
Went to relief k1m2 and k1m4 today.
Maybe I was too nice, so the students didnt even listen to me.
The whole place was chaotic!
But when they quieten down, looking at their innocent faces it makes me happy :)
Rush here and there which cost me to be late for my dinner date with xt qr n jel.
First time I've been so late, I guess my schedule is too packed alr! Shall do sth abt it!