Sunday, May 30, 2010

Nothing is fair in this world,
however, i learn that we shld always learn to face problems.
GOD has plans for us, and we shall abide by his will.
and whenever he throw us with a solution, follow his will.
always give thanks, be gladful for wad we are given.
Peace and Thanksgiving must be present in Christians!
through my uni admission, i have learnt to give thanks.
cause GOD has given me hope, and has helped me through this storm.
anw the coming few weeks will be a super hectic wk!
driving, tuition, work, korean class, meet up with friends...
wow, looks like its hard even for me to save up! =(
i shall stop blogging so often.
now that my sis is studyin for N level,
i have to help me dad in his work again...
so that means MS secretary is back.
less computer and leisure time for me=(
so anything u wan updates on, kindly sms.
if u are awaiting for details on my blog, wait a while then.
HAHAHAHA! i knw ppl are stalking.=D

Friday, May 28, 2010

sometimes i jus feel that i need a moment of rest,
im like a machine, constantly putting myself at work,
packing my schedules like crazy! haha.
maybe i shld juz learn to relax. hehe.
anyway my new job with jas is rather boring.
but to think of it, since when had telemarketing been nice? lols!
but with the com of a friend it makes working fun i guess=D
thanks to uni admission, my july wld be fully packed!

went to expo with my parents today.
it was actually just like a normal outing there but i was disappointed with my parents.
my mum actually denied that i was her daughter in front of a random surveyor...
my dad scolded me for sms-in while they are eating...
when my mum saw me calling my friend who was with her bf,
she jus asked how come they didnt intro a bf to me.
i might not have shown it, but these things hurt my feelings.

ANYWAY, THERE ARE A LOT OF SALE IN EXPO!
GO AND GRAB THE CHEAP STUFF EARLY=D
JOKE OF THE DAY.
2 days before end of uni acceptance, i saw on joint acceptance that nus accepted me. wad the!!!!

Monday, May 24, 2010

first day of work, my job is carefree i wld say. haha!
but the place is inaccessible, if jas wasnt working there, i doubt i wld! ha~
got one colleague there dosent knw hw lucky she is.
basically i dont really agree with the way she does things, but i kept quiet.
like usual, im not the person who will say things out. ha!
the stupid jam made me late for driving. argh!
keep making the same mistakes though. sad.
but i was lucky enuff to met sock hoon to acc me home. hehe!
anw the instructor was talking to me.
Mr Toh: Ur work nice a nt?
Me: ok lor
Mr Toh: Hw is the pay.
Mw: 7/hr
Mr Toh: One day work hw many hrs?
Me: 7 lor
Mr Toh: So one day u earn 49, minus bus fare and food lets say 9.
u only earn 40 a day max, not even enuff to cover for one driving lesson, why work?
Me: *speechless.

my budget trip is turning into a luxurious trip,
oh GOD, help me to save money!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I attended my cousin's SIMPLE, yet MEMORABLE wedding ytd.
The wedding is really simple,
it was just a small ceremony held at the field of a small church.
nothing fanciful or magnificent.
the wedding album was not taken in a studio, but by a friend using DSL.
the wedding cake was not large, not made by restaurant or famous bakery,
but it was made by a gd friend, filled with lotsa love.
It was a wedding, planned not with money,
but with lotsa loves and support from friends.
even though some ppl are complaining that a wedding cannt be so simple,
i was amazed and touched by the little things i saw.
their love was witnessed and verified by GOD.
i guess GOD of saying approval to this wedding was through the amazing, fantastic weather that we had, cloudy yet there was no rain.
It was lovely, to see two ppl getting married in the presence of the LORD.
and i actually felt that GOD was there watching too!
it was a nice and memorable wedding, much better than others i've seen so far...=D

Friday, May 21, 2010

Sigh.
Felt do disappointed when i heard my tuition kid's result.
well, nt exactly mu fault but i guess i have a part to play as well.
and i need to thank jas for getting the job for me~!!!
hopefully we can make it for the hk trip tgther^^
oh well, i duno why but i seriously feel that time passes super slowly this wk.
but anyway i think planning for a hols trip is nt easy.
coz diff ppl have diff issues lar.
but in anw, i hope it wld be fun! >><<
Tw, Hk HERE I COME!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Did i make the right choice?
Sometimes human are juz so indecisive, and im actually refering to myself too.
i hope i made the right choice to go for the tour.
but it is burning a huge hole in my pocket,
and my heart is feeling the pinch nw.
wads worse is i duno if i really CAN go for the trip,
since my grandma's condition dont look good.
if i had known earlier, i would nt go.
but its too late to say anything nw isnt it?

the reality is cruel, everyone knows this fact.
but humans are selfish, is it true?
i sort of believe it now, cause many ppl dont think of other's feelings whenever they say things.
or they do not spare a thought for others.
they might not know it, but the friends are all suffering silently
BECAUSE they treat u as a friend, so friends keep quiet.
but that dosen't mean u can jus ignore their feelings isn't it?
my advice, think before u speak.
even the calm ocean might explode one day...

Monday, May 17, 2010

Why does it seem as though so many of my friends are going to study in NUS?
is it also because of the sch's prestige? i dunno.
basically i think i have made up my mind.
SMU INFO SYSTEM.
since i have to bear in mind that i need to look after my family in future.
so i need a job with better career prospect.
though i know hw hard the course is.
since everyone says it is the toughest course in uni.
and IT is just sth that is hard to pick up.
but i believe in myself and like my msn nick, Posso Farle!
hopefully after so many wrong decisions i've made this yr,
this is a correct choice. i dont wana live with regrets anymore.
pray for me that i'll be able to stick to my choice.

Friday, May 14, 2010

The greatest joke of the day.
MY DAD THOUGHT THAT SMU IS AN ITE! -.-
to the older generation, only NUS n NTU are the local unis i guess.
not to forget mentioning that these 2 schs have prestige.
why do ppl fail to recognise the existence of this new uni.
despite the fact that it has gotten quite a few credits.
still stuck between the choice of NTU n SMU.
hopefully the tea session might help me to make a decision.
come to think of it, my ambition was to become a teacher when im in pri sch.
in sec sch, i dreamt of becoming an audit, hoping to study in NTU and to stay in the hostel, thinkin of hw carefree life can be, hw i can be free and to learn independence by living in a hostel.
as one matures, as one grows, i think reality starts to crepe in.
u dont study becoz of ur ambition, ur dreams.
because they are all destroyed by something called RESULTS.
you cn no longer think of living in a carefree life,
tuition fees can alr tie u down, so much that it makes me feel that im suffocating.
maybe thats why many of us have become the slaves of money.
with the hefty sum for tuition fee, wld u still think of spending more on hostel n transportation fee? why not jus live at hm and save up on that huh?
talk abt making friends in uni, i've heard so many feedbacks and comments.
UNI is not a place to forge friendship. thanks to the competitive society we are living in. now tell me, where is the joy of studying?
no longer can we find true friendship,
u cant study the course that u desire,
u are dumping in huge sums of money in,
hoping to get a good cert but uncertain if u are sticking to that path in future.
dosent the education system realise that they have shaped the current society into a place where there is no longer joy or purpose for studying but rather, we are studying for the sake of studying.
like the blind following the blind.
everyone needs a cert, so i have to get one too?
i'm starting to be blind too... ...

Thursday, May 13, 2010

so unlucky today.
my punggol kid's mum went to call the agent asking her to find a new tutor.
and she remembered that she havent collect the agent fee from me.
so there goes half of my tuition fees... ...

i got so irritated by my driving instructor today.
becoz of the huge rain, a lot of cars are stuck inside the circuit.
and we have to wait a long time for our turn.
so during the break, i think he was so bored that he suddenly clench his right hand into a fist and like a mike, he started to sing hokkien song.
well, if he had an angelic voice, i doubt i'll complain.
but his voice is like... ...well, i guess my ears just suffered.

the tuition kid in boon keng is extremely cute today.
K: Teacher, u know i got a gf in sch?
Me: Ohh? the Shermaine u told me abt?
K: No lar! she loves me but i dont love her, my gf is k. i got her no but i dont dare to call her. shy mah. *started laughing.
K: Teacher, do u have a bf?
Me: No.
K: Why?
Me: Well, i think becoz im too ugly?
K: Hmm, I think its because the man are all too ugly for u.
Me: (puzzled) aren't you a man?
K: Yes, but i'm a young man. A young man is cute, not ugly=D
Me: Oh well, cute k, continue your work.

I guess the kid didnt know how much i'm laughing deep down my heart. haha!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I think heaven is playing a joke, cause i received the acceptance letter from NTU sociology yesterday.
well, i'm still keen to study sociology but NTU is seriously too far!
i shall take some time to think abt it. hmm.
was baking with gwen yesterday, thats why im ultra slow at replying smses! psps
well, the banana cake sort of failed coz the banana wasnt ripe enough and the cake dont have banana taste. =(
egg tart was as usual but a bit sweet this time round, think i add too much sugar!
hmm, i guess i shld start thinking which shall be my next attempt.
i saw the adver at compass de icing room saying that they are hiring!
OMG, that is like my dream place to work in a bakery.
BUT BUT BUT, the pay is extremely low and i have to wear a 'overly cute' attire and this makes me wonder if i shld take on this job.
it's like the usual dilemma, money vs interest. lols!
i guess life always leaves us with this kind of situations isnt it?

Monday, May 10, 2010

Changed my blog song.
Listening to this song reminds me of the days i spent in OSLE.
days that i doubt i'll ever forget.
these are the ONLY wonderful memories that NYJC has given me...
I've learnt to accept life.
accept the way that it is now and how it will be in future.
sometimes it wld be hard to understand how GOD has plan our future, but still, i think i would gladly accept wad he has planned for me no matter what.=D
i thank GOD for giving me a chance to teach tuition,
to face kids with diff characters.
teaching them really gives me an eye opener.
though sometimes it really makes my blood boils,
but i feel happy when i see their results improving.
cause my efforts have not gone down the drain.
it seems almost common for ppl to ignore the positive attributes and magnify wadeva negative attributes that others have.
that's why the world is full of complains, full of ppl commenting on hw miserable their lives are, that's because they are nvr satisfied.
i saw the adver that a bakery shop is hiring in compass,
i sure hope that im able to work part time there so i can steal some skills! =D
but whether i get the job or nt, i leave it to fate.
GOD will decide for me.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

OMG, im getting really confused.
stop telling me what is right and wad is gd for me.
i think i know how to judge things by now.
before i got the letter, the comment was can enter uni gd enuff le.
tell ur gt the letter alr, the comment change again.
" this course good meh" , " got future a not, why nt other course"
pls, nw the UNI's are choosing me, nt the other way round.
i realise that more ppl are reading my blog.
and it seems to be a bad thing, dunno why.
i wanted to private my blog, wanted to change url again but i thot hmm no point.
sometimes i juz duno hw to express myself, hw to say things out, thats why i blog.
pls do not destroy this little corner of mine.



i like to go to buru because i enjoy looking at the vast ocean.
i also enjoy the time that i spend down there, looking at how others can spend life peacefully because the ppl there do not have to live up to expectations.
sometimes being smart is difficult, cause there are a lot of expectations i have to live up to.
and many times, ppl dont believe wad i say.
it makes me so tired that i feel as though im being strangled.
if i wana talk i will, if not dont ask. i dont like being forced.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

终于给我等到了,可是我却没有想象中高兴。。。
为什么?
是我已经不懂我想要走的路吗?
人就是什么事都会觉得烦。
决定了就不能后悔,我四年的人身,快不快乐就要看我选择。
突然间,我想起了我表弟最爱的一首歌。
“你快乐吗?我很快乐。”
我到底快乐吗?
收到信时,我想告诉他们但我没有那么做。
因为有些朋友还在等待消息,我了解那种心情,所以我选择不说。
我真的想要进SMU吗?
It's all over! no more uni interviews i guess.
If you ask if i think i did well, i would say i doubt so.
Prof: Hmm, FASS is ur second choice while biz is ur first choice. So if i accept you, but biz sch also gives u a chance to enter that means u will join them then why do u think i need to give u a chance to enter our course when it is not really wad u are interested in?

If you were me, how wld u ans it? they say their sch give ppl equal opportunities and equal chance independent of our results. Is that true?
I really dont know and i cannt judge.
what i learn frm these profs is that during this 4 years, u have to do wad u like.
dont think abt the future yet, because not many ppl will continue and make use of wad they learn in uni so u must choose sth that u like so u can enjoy and score well in the four years.
well i agree with that, and they both think that i can take social work as my major since they can see that im passionate in it.
I wouldn't deny that I am really passionate in it, but will my family support me?
in this world where money speaks louder than anything else to my mother.
if i tell her, im gg to spend 30k in uni to study abt social work, will she kill me?
well, i dont know. Leave everything to GOD first then.
if i cant even get into that sch, wads the point of thinking nw huh?

I'm glad that my EGG TARTS are yummy! I'm gg to explore more recipes on my free days. yea~!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

I'm feeling a twig of excitment, but i dare not hope for much.
because i know i shld not have any high hopes yet.
the higher the hope, the bigger the disappointment isn't it?
i guess by teaching tuition GOD is trying to hint that hey, teaching is definitely NOT the future for me.
to be frank, i feel sad whenever my tuition kids say they hate me.
but what can i do?
i am jus trying to help them, jus that they dont realise it.
reading torey hayden's book called 'the silent boy', i aspire to be a teacher like her.
someone who is able to shower ppl with lots of love.
have the never say die spirit and perservere to teach.
am i able to be like her or shld i jus let go of this tuition case?

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Since im so free today i shall post abt the wonderful sat i had last wk.
i will name that day, the PRATA day.
that was the day whereby i only ate prata, for the entire day.
went to my grandma hse to stay on fri night or rather sat morning.
since i only reach there at 12 plus. haha!
chatted and played songs until like 3am before we all fell aslp.
woke up at ten, cab to giant to buy ingredients for cheesecake after breakfast at the market.
the first prata was bought by my cousin's bf. haha.
i ate like 3 1/2 pratas for my lunch. lols.
baked the cheesecake but it appears that too much cream cheese was added. haha!
went to give tuition at 4.30pm. the tuition kid was surprisingly obedient that day.
guess there is always an angel and devil inside everyone.
and that day his angel appeared for once. haha.
then went to sing k at tio heng. first time i went to k with my cousins and her bf.
it was awesome! the place is so high tech lor.
touch screen de monitor leh. haha
then my cousin said that she is meeting her friends for supper.
and guess wad? they are going to eat prata!
so i went and had another 3 pieces when it was alr 1230am. lols!
her friend still say that to burn out the fats, i'll need to run 1.2km for per piece of prata that i ate! lols!
think im goin to stop eating prata for quite some time. haha!
shld i feel happy or shld i feel sad.
happy cos now even nus call me to go for an interview.
sad cause they are all only interviews, i do not know if i really got in or not.
since no letters arrived and im starting to get tired of waiting.
but atill it is a hope. so i still believe that there is a miracle.
i started to learn parking today.
oh man, it is seriously very difficult.
coz i sucked at estimation.
though it is hard, i still hope i wld be able to pass my practical test with jus one try! i wana amaze my parents! =D
my schedule recently is in a mess! argh.
it is time to get an organiser alr. hias.