after so long, i finally cried.
not exactly cause of results, but cause of the encouragements that i received from my friends.
yea my results are lousy, they are damn bad.
it makes me feel bleak and useless.
esp when all those hardwork that i have put has gone down the drain.
that my efforts are not showing at all.
i can do so well in projs but when it comes to lab, i screw it up.
the thought of giving up just overwhelms me.
i knw i said before, even if i die i will not quit sch.
cause quitting is nvr an option for me!
but im just so tired now, so tired of hiding my sadness.
i knw i have to JIAYOU, but how?!?
why do i see ppl taking things so simple, but i cant?
i take more time to learn as compared to them, practised more but still get lousier grades?!?
im stupid. thats something i have to admit.
im a dumb gal.

i realise when i needed support and concern, the ppl that i expect arent there.
but im glad that there are ppl out there to give me a little push to press on.
i really thank god for that.