Got back ooad results. I failed my mod...
Surprisingly I didnt cry or feel sad, maybe im alr immune to bad grades.
Got used to looking at results that dont reflect my hardwork.
Life just seems to be more unfair as I grew older...
Surprisingly I have pulled through year one.
Life in smu has been tough, real tough.
Im really gladful for the nice ppl that god have placed ard me.
Having a nice meta grp with great friends who never failed to make me laugh like crazy when im with them, though they like to make fun of me.
Having nice proj grpmates, maybe not all are good but I had great exp cause I learn alot despite getting backstabbed and tortured sometimes.
Got into a cca which I dont feel bonded and feel so foreign abt but im glad i can be a company to jasmine.



Life is like a roller coaster ride that is filled with turns and unexpected surprises.
It doesn't always go according to the way we want it, but we will all start and end at the same point in the end.
The journey might be tough but it can be fun if u keep an open mind.
Its just the start of the journey and i have a much longer way to go.
May my ride be smoother as it continues...
God please guide my way.

Results are slowly coming out..
There is this feeling of anxiety whenever I view my results.
I realized by being honest im only harming myself.
Hias. My stupidity just cause me to score lesser for class part.

Had great fun at the chalet cause I manage to know and bond with more ppl.
Though the ppl going for the ocsp are all nice ppl, most of them lack the exp of teaching and doing volunteer work so im a bit afraid that there might be lots of problems in terms of programs that we might face there.
But im sure everything will be able to turn out fine with god's guidance.
In two more wks I will be flying off!!!:)

Ooad results are gonna be out tonight.
Ahh! Why do the profs like to spoil my mood!
I hope I did well. Pls god, allow me to at least maintain my gpa.
I've tried my best for this sem so pls show me some results!

celebrated easter in church, truly enjoyed the lessons in church more and more.
i think thats cause i have a really nice and good teacher.
the lessons made me realised that my faith in the past wasnt strong.
and i have much more to learn to become a better christian.

spent a lot these few days, really a lot.
but the days were enjoyable, esp with all my friends.
had is101 gathering last night, like usual i stick to yanni while the other guys stick to each other, thats cause their topics and ours are diff! haha
but then again, we had great fun, nice chats.
as usual, yanni left early, leaving me with the 2 guys.
wanted to go timbre but in the end i pangseh them cause amanda needed help with econs, so i rushed to her hse to help her with the econs concepts.
hopefully she did well for the paper...

went out with a friend today, i think i finished WALKING the whole of NEX.
literally walking and talking. LOL.
listening to my friend's stories just made me realised how fortunate i am, how blessed i am esp with my nice family.
i shall pray for my friends, pray that GOD will touch their hearts and make them feel his presence so that they will have faith in HIM.

I had a day of surprise today. Haha
Surprised by tk de galfiend and by one of my uni friend.
Why surprised i guess i shall not say. Haha!
Have to thank mr unknown for going an to raffles place with Me.
Now i got my dream wallet!!! So happy.:):):)
But got a bit of bu she de to use it leh.
Haha. Shall use it when sem starts:)
Life has been great so far, but not results.
I think i lost the hope for this sem de gpa alr but i really tried my best so maybe that's the reason i didnt feel sad or emo when i see my grades.
Hopefully other mods would do well though deep in my heart i know its gone case for those mods too.


I think sometimes i really think too much over certain things and i lack the courage to do a lot of things. I need more courage and confidence in myself. ..

It seems as though I have been having hols for a mth when only 3 days have passed.
I spent a lot of money but I would say I truly enjoyed myself these few days:)
Life seems to be so great, carefree and stress free:)
But results are coming out alr.
I dunno if I shld check my results now or later.
Because I fear that the results might not be good and this might disrupt the little happiness that I have right now.
Next wk is gonna be a busy wk too cause I have to plan out the programs for my ocsp and there is also a bonding chalet:)
Have to pick up cycling during the chalet. Argh.
Im damn bad at cycling, but I have to cycle in Vietnam. Sian.
But i dont understand why so many ppl are shocked that i cant cycle.
Actually i can, but i sucked at it.
Furthermore i dont wish to add another scar on my knee alr!
On the side note, learning cycling isn't a bad thing. Its an easy skill that i shld have picked up long ago! Lol.
Three more wks and im flying off!!!!;)

Great days spent with my friends ytd.
Though I spent a lot of money, I truly enjoyed myself:)
I really appreciate the present given by my meta grp cause I've been hinting my friends that I want tht wallet for a year but none caught that hint and they actually got me that wallet though its nt the exact one tht I desire.
But since its a gift frm them, I still love it:)



Ppl, u got to STOP stirring shit. Im kindof irritated alr.
Pls dont make me flare up.
Being single isn't a sin, so stop matchmaking me!
I seriously had enough alr.
There is a limit to jokes so pls dont go beyond the limits.

Exams are over!!!!
Freedom. That's all I have and all I need now!:)
Im gonna enjoy myself to the fullest before my results are released!
:):):)
Life has never seem better..

Screwed up my stats paper.
To think that I spent the most time studying for stats.
Looks like im goin to emo and cry like crazy when I get back my gpa this sem.

while i was having lunch at hm today, i happened to watch the show dream potter.
looking at this show, im touched.
touched by how simple life can be.
how love and help by one can make life better for others.
im fortunate enough to be born healthy and able-bodied.
fortunate to have the intelligence to enter uni.
and i have to learn to be thankful.
when i start work, i will definitely contribute to help those ppl in need
cause i knw little things to me can make a huge diff to them!

One paper down, four more to go!
This paper wasn't easy but oh well I cant do anything abt it now.
Bye dm! :)
Met jx for lunch n went for free cone day.
The ice cream was fantastic! It brightened up my day.
But damn sway cause I got caught smuggling my friend into the lib and the stupid guard reprimanded us for like ten over min and recorded my name down saying there will be actions taken.
-.- its not like im bringing my friend in to do illegal things.
I brought her there cause she wanted to explore the lib which might be one of her Camping ground' in future shld she choose the is path...

Its the first time I failed to smuggle ppl in. Zzz
Oh well, I hope nth will happen.
That is IF the guard don't make a mountain out of a molehill.

One more wk and im gonna embrace my long awaited freedom!
I can foresee myself being broke alr! Lol

Two more days! Argh.
I still feel so unprepared but its ok,
I tried my best for my is mods alr.
Good or bad I would still have to face it.
Love today's church lesson.
I can feel that god is trying to use this lesson to talk to me.
I know I have been neglecting god which is bad.
Now I shall learn to trust and be dependent on him for my finals.

In one more wk, I will regain my freedom!
Dramas, friends, gatherings wait for me!!!

Had a great dinner with my awesome sec sch mates. ;)
It was nice thinking abt the past, laughing n joking ard although they wld always make fun of me...
Its ok, as long as we can have fun, I dont mind.
Having dinners like this helped me to release stress:)


Results are not impt, so dont let them affect my mood.
I know i have tried my best, that's enough.
Its time to let go of results.
Dont give myself too much stress.
I must learn to enjoy what im studying instead...

after so long, i finally cried.
not exactly cause of results, but cause of the encouragements that i received from my friends.
yea my results are lousy, they are damn bad.
it makes me feel bleak and useless.
esp when all those hardwork that i have put has gone down the drain.
that my efforts are not showing at all.
i can do so well in projs but when it comes to lab, i screw it up.
the thought of giving up just overwhelms me.
i knw i said before, even if i die i will not quit sch.
cause quitting is nvr an option for me!
but im just so tired now, so tired of hiding my sadness.
i knw i have to JIAYOU, but how?!?
why do i see ppl taking things so simple, but i cant?
i take more time to learn as compared to them, practised more but still get lousier grades?!?
im stupid. thats something i have to admit.
im a dumb gal.

i realise when i needed support and concern, the ppl that i expect arent there.
but im glad that there are ppl out there to give me a little push to press on.
i really thank god for that.

The moment I touch on books, I feel sleepy.
Knowing the vast amt of things I have to study,
My brain just refused to cooperate!
Temptations are strong.
How do I resist them!?!
Saw a lot of ppl coming for is interview today,
Including one of my jc classmate.
Looks like there are a lot of ppl courting death this yr!


Im rather pissed at hw unfair life can be.
She didnt contribute much for grp proj, got friends who did the paper to give her the a and did so much better than me for labtest.
I shall resign to fate.
Reality sucks.

Got back my labtest result ytd ..
Maybe I alr accepted the fact that im a weak and lousy student,
That's why when I see my grades I didn't cry, didn't really emo over it.
I've alr tried my best, but results didn't show.
I dont even dare to think abt gpa anymore.
Deep inside a part of me is giving up, telling me im tired alr.
Stop chasing after results.
Stop getting jealous when u see ur friends improving while u are standing still at the same spot.
Stop emoing over the alphabets because grades won't change just because u felt sad.
Stop standing on the same spot and explore the world.
Learn as u grow, counter all adversities as GOD is with me...

Had a great time both ytd and today!!!:)
My biggest worry was cleared when I submitted both my major proj!
Thank god for the awesome teammates and help that I have received!
:):):):):):)
Nice k session with my lovely sec sch clique too! It really helped me to destress A LOT!finished my dm presentation today too and I enjoy myself joking with my dm grpmates and my two bff in smu!
Life seems to be awesome!
How I hope sch can remain fun this way...

Redo, edit, change.
I think I hear these words so often that I might dream of it.
Well, the torture SHOULD end soon, unless these words appear again.
Having a perfectionist in the grp might be good, but members like me suffer the most.
Feel damn pissed with certain ppl, but I shall not mention their name.
Really feel the lack of slp as my eyes are having blurred visions now.
Im sorry god I didnt go for service today cause Im afraid my body cant take it anymore.
I dunno why god want me to get into this course but im sure he has his purpose .
The endless nights are gonna end real sooooonnn...

A lot of things to do!
Im stretching my limits.It will all end soon.
I really learnt a lot through proj, esp on hw good ur members are. Lol