Its been 2 days since i got back my results...
am i feeling better? yes.
have i gotten over it? no.
unfortubately, no, no, no!
i tried my best to forget, and realise its hard.
once i'm alone, i'll start to think...
wad wld happen in future? which course can i go? wad if the uni would nt accept me?
and the lousy results tt i get for A's.
how impossible it is that my best subjects failed me.
then tears wld start to stream down my cheeks.
failure is sth tt i still cannt accept.
i realise it is better for me to go out.
cause when im outside talking to others, i wont think tt much.
went to smu open hse with amanda. it was funny.
coz i went to listen to the talk for my dream course knowing very well tt i cannt get in.
i dont even dare to put it in my first choice coz im afraid if i do, i might even lose my spot in another course tt i think is a dumping ground.

went to church today, when my friends asked abt my results, the ans was bad.
and they say sure can get into the uni course u wan right? i said no.
biz so hard to get in meh? was their reply.
yes, need at least AABB. and their reply was didnt u even get tt?
no. no. no!!!!!!!
and i felt like crying again, but im better at controlling my emotions now.
my cousin said tt im those person who belong to affirmative words.
i like ppl to say things tt i like and i treat wadeva they say very importantly.
so when i gt bacck my results, i immediately thought of wad caiyi said.
score badly and go poly with her. and now, i fulfilled half of her wish. lols.
and before gg knew my results, she said, i wont talk to dumb ppl.
and before she sms me to say she was jk after knwing my results, i alr took it seriously.
yes i am dumb, im stupid. thats maybe why i joined jc huh?
im just a stupid gal. so stay away frm me in case the disease of being stupid might spread... ...