FRIENDS.
I'm starting to lose the meaning of this word and the word friendship.
heard from my cousin tt his friend said it was difficult to be his friend.
because my cousin didnt show him any concern, so they arent friends anymore.
come to think of it.
if i'm like his friend, then i wont have any friends anymore.
after i gt back my a lvl results, some friends didnt even bother to talk to me.
some ask for my results and didnt say anything.
some console me, but tts only for tt few moment and after tt, nth else.
so did i receive a lot of care n concern from them? maybe, maybe not.
if you think tt by not talking to me or leaving me alone it wld be better.
let me tell u this, you are only sending me a signal tt my results are driving our friendships apart.
and how strong can friendship be?
last time i used to think tt it can be described by using ionic bond.
now? friendship seems to be just a thin piece of paper.
it can be torn, smeared anytime.
i knw some of my friends are planning for my bdae.
but wad is the use of planning it when i dont even have the mood to celebrate it?
even if u buy me abalone, i wld not be happy.
wad i need is simply some care and concern.
knowing my character, i dont like to say things out.
so if u wana know, you have to ask.
come to think of it, i used to go out with my friends so often.
but after A lvls, not anymore.
why do ppl always wait for me to ask them out or talk to them
why not the other way round. do i always have to be the one asking?