if i were to post this in the afternoon,
it wld all be filled with my pleasant trip in buru...
what i saw and the lovely kids i taught.
buru is indeed a perfect getaway from the hectic spore life.
but certain things happened and they began to upset my mood.
i feel so.....lonely and sad.
got complains frm my mum for gg to buru, coz she dont like me to get involved in church stuff.
and i got a chance to know that i need to start paying my own phone bills when i start uni...
sch fees, learning fees for driving lesson, allowance and now hp bills!
all money money money!!! =(
then the stupid irritating cousin said tt i look like a mushroom with my new hairstyle and hw i wasted my $.
her stupid galfriend tried to psycho my mum to get me in accountancy by boasting hw gd my life would be if i end up like her. wth? she sucked.
i dont usually say tt so u can sense my anger with her.
and my 2nd aunt complaining that i ate with bites that are too small (why does it even bother her?) making the food look so nt nice and that my dressing today makes me look old, as though i was 29.

complains, complains, complains...
argh! get a life! its my life! why do ur complain when i didnt even complain myself!
so tired after a day with so many irritating incidents and another cousin asked me to hlp her complete her poly work?!?
why cant i even get a chance to rest,
have a day of peace with complains and scoldings?
am i that bad?

i wanted to feel hw fortunate i was after the buru trip,
wanted to treasure things ard me.
but often, these images wld disappear and i wld think tt im in a way suffering too.
suffering by being suffocated by my own feelings.
i dont like to say it out coz i dont like to trouble ppl,
and i dont like ppl to offer their ears after i start to complain.
if they really care, i dont have to say out everything.
but no smses. no one to talk to. thats my boring life...