DECISIONS.

sometimes, GOD simply makes it too tough for u to make a decision.
and Life, would always play a prank on me.
it was supposed to be a happy day at the 0820 bbq, but my mood gt ruined.
maybe i think too much. but i feel that my old friend is gone.
and nw, im stuck in a super bad position.
i really wanna help but i dunno hw to help.
sometimes it's just too difficult to say no.
coz i dunno hw to reject my friends.
but when it comes to money related, a huge sum...
i guess the selfish me has decided to protect my money.
my cousins told me not to bother abt this kind of friend.
but i know i shld do sth to help and not leave her alone.
this is nt the kind of path that ppl in our age shld take.
and i hope that she will understand tt we are doing this all for her own good.
and not to stop her frm achieving success...
GOD, pls guide me and let me knw what i can do.

argh. i got this super big ulcer that is super annoying.
super pain and it kills my appetite.
and i feel that im falling sick soon, thanks to those sleepless night.