Had a wonderful day at batam.
We ate, shop and crap.
Though we went with tour, it was actually ok.
Just that a lot of shops that we went to purposely up their pr cause they know they are serving the tourists.
Felt a bit scammed that way.
But to think of it, I shall treat it as im helping the residents there to earn a bit more since they aren't living a well off lifestyle.
Went to eat at a kitty restaurant! That place totally caught us off by surprise.
Bought clothes again.damn.
I just cannot resist the temptation.
But despite buying them my mum refuse to wash them.
Think she wanna keep them till cny. Lol.
But then again, I really think I bought too much.
Maybe the older one gets the more shopaholic one becomes?
Or is it cause my friends all have too little clothes which makes me feel as though I have a lot of clothes?
Hmm, its a qn worth thinking...

Finally a day of rest.
Been working these few days that I sort of lost connection with the world.
Work has been fun, made some friends though I think we would only be hi bye friends after this job ends.
Not only was cashiering fun, relief at kindergarten was fun too!
It made me more keen to set up a kindergarten in future.
So what I have to do now is to earn suff money!
Now gpa doesn't influence me that much.
I just wanna graduate n earn suff money.
Passion or pay? This always leave ppl in a dilemma.
That's the way life works, forever trapping u.
Learn to make the right choices.
As for the rest, god will provide:)

Worked sort of like half day today cause I need to go for ndp rehearsal.
Its been long since I've seen one.
The last one was like...pri 5!?!
Haha. Come to think of it, that's nine yrs ago!
Must thank ms for getting the tickets cause I think the whole thing was rather awesome, esp the fireworks which is my fav! :)
On my way home, i saw this couple who was damn touchy.
Wasn't really paying attention to them until i heard them talking about teachers.
Heard them talking abt ms tan and ganesan, classes like 5 faith n joy.
So...they are my 'junior'.
Seems long since i graduated frm sec sch, but i guess the teachers r pretty much the same...

Went for Jl briefing today.
The person told us its good to have multiple roles while working cause having more ex will increase ur mkt value.
Then georgina was telling me what the supervisor said was a joke, cause for the past two days what we have been doing is packing undergarments, clothes etc.
How can that increase our mkt value. Lol.
True i would say, and the way she said it makes me laugh. Haha.
Went to my tutee hse.
Im thankful that God gave me all the nice parents who treats me well.
And this further motivates me to teach them well.
But the mum wants to set wed as the tuition day, which means after se in future, i would have to Marathon down to teach tuition.
Im rather used to the marathons anw. Haha.
Just hope that my se grp won't wanna do proj after se lesson...

Had attachment at jl today to familiarize with the system before I start work.
The staff was friendly, which is a good thing.
Saw some clothes that were damn cheap!
But control mad, ur wardrobe cannot keep expanding!
I shall wait for end season sale! Haha
Hopefully god will provide and the days at expo will be good.
I realized the main pt abt working is not the pay, but the friends and exp that u get there.
Hopefully I can learn more, exp more before I start working in the society full time.
Have fun while u are young!:)

My day was made awesome through the singing with my seven yr long friends.
Its nice to have singing companions to sing with, joke with and go out with.
Tmr onwards, life will get a bit tougher... Busier I guess.
God will guide me through.

Back from BURU. nothing much has changed there..
but this time round i had more experiences.
the sea water was SUPER CHOPPY on the way to indo.
made me felt a bit of sea sick.
because the new jetty is alr in operation, we dont have to take the sampan rides to change into the boats anymore! haha.
the usual shop that we usually have our lunch is not opened, so we decided to try the new Malay Stall.
Well, food was good, except that its too SPICY for me!
and the drink stall there sold us expired canned drinks!
luckily i spotted it and exchanged the cans with the uncle!
surprisingly, no one came in the afternoon. So the four of us rotted the entire afternoon by playing card games like donkey, old maid and happy family which we brought for the kids.
at night, a lot of students came!
was rather happy abt it, but my class was too large!
i was handling 12 students on my own. though language is not really a barrier cause some of them can communicate in hokkien with me,
these students are super violent and noisy!
its very hard to keep them down, despite me shouting at the top of my voice.
interacting with so many kids, i would say they are the most diff to handle grp of kids! even more diff than sg children.
but at least i see some of them making the effort to learn,
and that they remember me and my name despite me missing the trip for so many sessions.
this is what that motivates me to go back again.
maybe im too easily satisfied, but thats not a bad thing isnt it? =)

Today marks the end of twc, my summer term.
Finals was tough, but im glad its over.
Whatever the results might be, I dont dare to think abt it.
God will provide I believe.
Its time I start having faith in him again.
Again I have a tuition marathon today.
As I typed this post it sudd reminds me of the phrase i saw in the TW show Cindy acted.
U always help others, but why do u forget to help urself?
Maybe i shld learn to help myself more when sem starts...

I think im overly impulsive, or too easily persuaded.
Just a few words from the beautician and I succumb.
But facial was nice though.
If my mum know I went for facial, I think she would slaughter me! Haha
But which woman don't like to doll herself up?
Maybe I shld bring my mum here and try it someday:)
Tuition got postponed, again.
Oh well good in a sense, cause this way I can focus on studying for twc finals.
Hopefully I won't let myself down this time round.
Failure are the mother of success.
I've experienced so many failures, so when would success appear!?!

Im thinking if i shld do the part time job with jas.
Good to earn more money, but i wonder if i can balance studies, tuition and work.
But tuition will end in Sept though, once psle is over i will lose this income.
Im hoping that god would guide me into choosing the right path.
Allow me to make the right decisions so i won't have regrets.
Learn to make the right decisions and to grow up from failures.

Actually gpa doesn't matter to me now, not as much.
I just wanna graduate and get a job with stable income.
Work and save up sufficient money to fulfill my aspirations shld i still be alive and the end of the world haseny arrive...

Dunno if I made the right decision.
Maybe this is god's plan, and im sure he will guide me through.
Hopefully I will be able to cope and help out Dena.
She's a nice person, talking to her makes me realize that we have quite a lot of things in common.
I was thinking if i shld continue giving tuition after i end my two p6 cases.
Dena made me realize that all the while I've been teaching not because i wanna earn mone,but more because i want to help the weaker students with the knowledge that i have. May god provide me with the ability to help others.
To serve and learn from ppl ard me.

i love twc lessons, because its always so relaxing and educating.
esp the videos, i think they are damn interesting. =)
i think the main reason i love it is because the prof is nice, and his ideas are cute too! hopefully he isnt a bias prof like my LTB prof.
thank goodness i took my camera to sch today, took photos with TWC classmates.
most of the time i acted like a photographer, took more for my friend than for myself.
but nvm, thats because i like to isolate myself. haha.
went to sing k with meta peeps.
its been long since i last sung. so the feeling was great!
just that they dont sing the songs i sing. haha.
good also, cause no one would snatch the mic. HAHA.
but because i am going to sing with them, i have to PS teddy boy.
felt a bit bad though. cause i always fly him aeroplane...
left meta friends early to meet twins and jy.
supposed to be a shopping trip but i knw i alr got a lot of clothes.
so i controlled myself!
anw im too poor to buy a lot of stuff also. haha.
need to save up save up!
HK trip, summer exchange, TW trip...wait for ME! =)

HELLO MAD, are you still ALIVE?!!
rotted at home today, really ROTTED.
planned to go to my grandma hse, who knows no one is at home.
luckily i haven step out of my hse...HAHA
slacked like nobody's business.
supposed to revise TWC, but MAD just dont feel like studying.
PROCASTINATION.
this word fits me to a T.
from saying i wanna learn playing the piano, hiphop dance, drum, baking, revise programming, do out my own blogskins, learn korean..
this word just keep appearing in my brain.
SO IN THE END, NOTHING gets done. =(
bidding is such a torture,
it divulge the innate of humanity.
is it a bad or good thing? i dunno.
well, hopefully the bidding this time rd would be a success.
COME ON MAD, start doing whatever you have promised yourself that u wanted to do.

Had a great evening with my friends:)
Wynee is the easiest person to trick in the group,
So planning her b'day was rather easy.
Presentation ended today.
Wanted to ans during qna but I didnt see the need to since the guys in my grp are so enthu in answering.
Hopefully I can do well for twc. Get my first a.
I like this mod actually, cause it is rather fun.
Had bidding discussion.
Playing mind games is tiring and bidding is a game where logic fails u because no one is thinking logically, hence resulting in the high inflation in the edollar world.
My body wasn't feeling well today but nonetheless I pulled it through.
Just hope the weird feeling in my stomach would disappear soon and that my throat wld recover...

heartache, cause i spent 150 bucks today..
well, it isnt spent on useless stuff..its spent on formal clothes.
a large part of it went to the blazer... Zzz.
its such an irony, that i got the formal attire after i know that i failed my FT mods.
hias. thot i could get MC but in the end, it turns out that SMU inflation is much worse off than Singapore's inflation! Damn.
got to restructure my plan.
i think its GOD's will. cause after i fail these bids, he gave me a new thought.
a new direction on how i shld bid my timetable.
GOD, i trust that im going the right way, pls lead me and guide me.
Bidding is a torture but studying is much worse..

wow, its my 240 post on this blog alr..
think this is my longest lasting blog EVER!
had twc meetings and lessons today.
well, i would say progress looks fine, but i dunno if the report would be good.
cause most of it is done by me, so i pray hard everything goes fine.
went out with friends after lesson.
crapped and ate ajisen for dinner.
it is always fun to sit down and listen to the life journey that others have been through.
watched popper's penguin. nice movie i would say, cause there are quite a lot of funny parts in the movie. haha.
i realised its been damn long since i last watched a movie.
maybe cause life has got so busy for me and my friends that we dont even have time to spare 2 hrs for a short movie.


if there is one thing i hate abt sch, that would be bidding.
though bidding has an advantage, which is to allow u to see the true self of the ppl ard you.
the evil, scheming kind of looks will allow u to differentiate who are the ppl u shld really make friends with.
life is cruel i would say. but this is the life we are leading now.

Had a great time at sentosa today.
Thanks to the HORIZON ppl who never fails to bring laughter to my life.
was late for like 2 hrs thanks to my mum and georgina, but i was glad they wasent very angry with us.
went sentosa. the weather was ultra hot, so hot that i burned myself darker once again... ...
i think it will be hard for me to get back to my previous lighter tanned color unless i hide at home for months! haha.
played volleyball for a while, took some pics before i got dragged into the ocean by them. THANKS TO GEORGINA.
i think im too light, thats why the girls alone is able to carry me to the sea without the help of the guys.
to think that none of my friends came to help me...
but i manage to drag almost all of them down into the sea with me! HAHA.
hopefully such gatherings will continue because if there isnt someone to plan such outings, the horizon spirit would be lost soon.
i hope this grp wont end like normal camp groups.
stay strong and united horizon!


been contemplating if i shld join in the planning of horizon II.
i would love to go for OCIP again, but that is if there is time for planning etc.
wanted to try new areas like cambodia or africa, but i dont mind going back to viet too, since its such a HUGE country. haha.
because of sch, i've rejected to join the dec YCAMP committee cause i knw i need to focus on sch work alr.
but am i gonna let sch work diminish my passion for volunterism?
today bernice taught us, our source of love comes from GOD.
the unconditional, everlasting, accepting love that we have for others is also from GOD. In order to love GOD, we have to learn to love others first.
maybe GOD wants me to love others through volunteering thats why he made this my passion. If im not burdened by family, i might have chosen the path of social worker.
but whats done cannot be undone, i've chosen IT so i shld stick to it.
the future is in ur hands, change it while u can.

Its disgusting to see ppl sucking up to Prof just for results.
I've known ppl who deliberately find Prof to chat after class just to make sure that the Prof would know them so they can get their class part.
And this works extremely well for ppl who have bias Prof in their class.
U just cannot imagine how bias these profs can be.
And being a male, there are a lot of advantages that they can get.
I thought university is abt providing ppl with education and knowledge.
That my country values a lot on meritocracy, but now it seems otherwise.
So ppl who can talk, can suck up to profs are the ones who can survive well in uni?
This is a joke. Tell me that the society isn't what I have seen.