We always reach out to god only when we reach the end of the rope..
How true.
I realized ever since I entered uni I have started to get closer to god.
Maybe because of the hectic schedule and never ending assignmentS,
I will always turn to god for help.
Im really gladful that I know god,
Because he is always there to support me when im falling.
Thank you lord.

爱情就像在等德士，有时他等你，有时你等他。
但是等来等去，总有一天一定会等到他。

这是《等一等爱情》的台词。
很多时候我们都在等，等待完美爱情的到来。
可是等了在等，等久了就一定能等到吗？

Don't always think u are the best just cause u did well.
Being smart does not give u the right to insult others to be stupid.
Im so gonna prove u wrong.
I will never think of quitting school because now I have a purpose and a target, which is to beat u, to prove to u that I'm not the stupid person that u have claimed. YOU are the stupid one.

Its time for mad to work hard.

hias, DM results out.
i cant help but feel disappointed...
why is it that when i thot that i wana improve my GPA but my results keep dropping..
GOD keeps telling me that i shld take a rest,
but am i taking too much rest?
what can i do? what shall i do?
GOD, show me the path!

Yes. One grp proj submitted. This stupid 7.5 marks cause me to slp less than 3 hr a day and wasted one whole wk of my time studying for it. Actually I could have slept more but cause the leader of my grp kept changing stuff n codes, causing me to waste so much time coding for a class that in the end it wasn't submitted. Lol. But at least I got a chance to learn so I dont blame him. Lol. Real tired and I'm amazed how I can survive and look so energetic still. Lol. Huiying jiayou!

i feel like crying...
feel so much like giving up...
maybe coding is just not my cup of tea.
and i shall stop bringing trouble to my grpmates like seriously.
u dunno hw helpless i feel.
u might feel angry for having trust in me,
that i cannot help u out.
but apart from im sorry,
i can only tell you that, hey.. i did my best.

Sat till sun full swing ooad mtg.
Mon to tue full swing dm mtg.
Wed full swing bgs research paper mtg.
Thur ooad AGAIN!
Fri full pack tuition
Sat YMCA and sun church.
Wait, aren't next wk my recess wk?
Why can't I see any breaks for myself?
At this rate I wonder when my body will collapse.
Don't even have time to visit the doc
Flu, u seriously strike at the WRONG TIME!

God just made me realized how lucky I was today to have a healthy body...
While studying with my friends today, we were talking while I witness sometime epic.
My friend suddenly have fits right in front of me!
Yea fits, u didn't see wrongly.
I was shocked. Really shocked and I didnt know what to do.
Luckily there was another friend ard at that time too.
I ran to get the security guards to call the ambulance and to help out.
This is really scary.
Cause it made me realize how short life can be.
I shall rejoice that I'm alive...

Valentines day.
The day which almost all women love because they can get surprises from their bf.
On the contrary, its the day where all guys hate cause not only will they have to be scammed by the florist, they have to come out with surprises to humor their gf.
Looking at the no of males with bouquets of flowers, I can't hlp to laugh cause this is the only day most guys wld look stupid.
Haha

im so tired of this world now.
sometime i just wish for GOD to receive me into heaven now, so that all my sufferings will end...

Screwed my dm proj.
2 test this wk n 2 proj submission cum midterm next wk.
Damn, I really need to work hard.
I need to score for this sem!

Guess what.
The torture has just begun...

everyone needs to grow...so do i.
recently i start to realise that i was wrong all the while.
i thought i had been caring for all my friends.
but i didnt.
when they were facing troubles, i did nth to help.
when they are sad and need someone to talk to, i wasnt ard.
when they are sick, i wasnt giving them care and concern.
what have i done as a friend for them? nothing.
yea, absolutely NOTHING!
there are so much i could have done but so much i didnt do.
maybe its cause after jc i start to slack as a friend.
because i thought i shldnt always be the one caring abt them.
but rather i shld let them learn to care for me also.
in the end, i realised that this dont work.
maybe i shld really stick to my mon-sat sms routine.
talk to everyone at least once a wk to know that they are doing fine.
i started to evaluate myself and i would grade myself as a lousy friend.
maybe like what the yanping said, im a lousy friend the worse that u could find.
the one that u shld get away from.
maybe jy feels that what she say is right thats why she still keeps in contact with her and nicholas.
i've started to reflect my role as a friend. Have you?
just start thinking, what have u done for ur friend?

Im a bad friend.
One that does not even know that my friends are sad.
One that neglected the ppl ard me.
I thought all my friends have found love and they are all happy
I thought i shld encourage more to leave mu singles club so that they can find love
I was thinking maybe i shld also try to find love rather than being someone who has no exp at all...
But i was wrong.
Maybe love is still a forbidden fruit afterall...
Now my singles club expanded, way faster than i imagined.
Looking at things my friends faced.
It just deters me from loving any guys apart from my Korean idols.
Maybe the love from family and friends are still the best.
Welcome to the club my friends.
I promise I'll try to care more about ur...
Because all of u are my beloved friends,
I Want to lift u up from ur sorrows and bring u into a land of joy.
Maybe cause i know god and i rely on him, i can talk to him whenever i am sad.
But for my friends who haven accepted god,
U know what, u can always talk to me.
I'd rather u share joy and sorrows with me rather than me knowing u through ur blogs.
This doesn't apply only after this incident but has been in my thoughts all the while...
If you find me as a true friend then TAlk TO ME!

when i thought i was reaching the finishing line, i realised that im actually still running on the same spot.

When the world evolves, i remain constant.

This is bad, really bad...