Because I'm weary...
this is a korean song from GOS,
i like listening to this song nowadays cause it depicts my mood.
i'm not a person of speech.
be it hw chatty i am, i'm the kind of person who likes to bottle up emotions inside me, hide it so that no one would notice.
covering myself with an invincible mask has got me tired.
deep down, i'm just like any other girl,
yearning for protection, longing for ppl to understand me.
the world of politics has gotten me tired.
Sometimes i kept quiet, not because i dont have my views or opinions,
but because i wana save the trouble of getting into a huge fight,
or avoid getting into quarrels.
even the kindest person on earth yearns to be evil jus for a day.
Happy go lucky as i may seem, i think a lot.
i like to help out silently, but that causes everyone to take me for granted.
Ask my friends how i keep my wkends off just to have a simple dinner with my parents, how i'm trying to save up to pay for my own uni fees to help lessen their workload, and how hard im trying to pass my driving so that when my dad is tired, i can help him out to drive my family members home.
i'm doing all these to get accredited by my mum as an unfilial daughter... ...
I keep my sat nights for my cousin, trying hard to stay awake to wait for their arrival to my hse, allow my mum to scold me whenever they come, what i got was a fight with my cousin saying that i didnt stand up for them when my mum was quarrelling with her, saying that they should not come to my hse every wk.
u think i would like to keep quiet? i jus didnt wana argue with my mum.
I tried planning gatherings for my friends, but everytime someone wld fly the aeroplane. Fancy giving u the date months in advance, still i can get the ans of oh i cannt make it.
Saying that we will look for jobs together, yet one by one my friends abandoned me once they found a job. I'm fine with u gettin a job, but can u stop showing off hw gd ur job is in front of me?

Put urself in my shoe, u think it is easy to be a nice person?
If i'm too nice until everyone gets overboard, let me tell u.
Even the calmest ocean can become a tsunami someday.
I didnt voice out a lot of things,
not because im an easy target for u to bully,
but because i respect my family, my friends
so i chose to remain silent, to do things in the dark.
what i really hope is that ppl can appreciate wad i do. Can you?