days since i updated.
mad has been busy going out lately. haha
went out with colleagues to watch movie at amk hub on fri.
applied for my pdl also. driving lesson will start soon! ><
went out with aman to attend the ntu talk @ suntec on sat.
went to suki sushi at PP to celebrate my mum's lunar bdae on sat night.
and i met geraldine and her sisters there. haha.
went to church, both grandma hse today.
then went out with my cousins to shop giant and ikea.
dont ask me why they like to hang out ard these places.
but i guess age plays a fairly impt role! ><
i said i wanted to buy a mixer to use for baking.
then i decided not to since i wanted to request it as a bdae present frm my dad.
but my cousin & auntie got it for me!
so touched>< haha.
ohh not to forget tt i have been playing mahjong recently.
played at tk hse on fri.
i actually brought bx there to play with us.
didnt expect her to agree to come but since she dosent mind, its ok lar. haha!
played with hx, his gf and wt today at grandma hse.
nt as exciting since we are only playin with fake chips.
but yea, it really helps to kill time! ><
well, i really hope A lvl result will be good.
so i wld have the mood to celebrate my bdae!=D

Expectations...
this word might sound scary, might sound common.
wadeva it is, i dunno if this word will exist in my dictionary this and nxt wk.
many of my friends feel this way too.
i wana expect good results
but at the same time, i might also have to learn to accept failure.
hias, wadeva the results are. its predestined.
i always believe that everything tt happens, happen for a resaon.
and these...are simply part of GOD's plan.
so learning to accept and understand it is my job.

speaking abt job. i guess i lost hope in my current job.
so now, mad is on the way to look for better opportunities!
when i started tuition, i thot GOD, why give me such a student?
i'm going to die teaching him.
but he has his nice side too, just like how he says sorry mad. haha.
even my student calls me mad. Zzz. cant be helped. lols.
GOD, pls guide me to find a better job ok?
and let me knw hw to quit the current one which i see no future in waiting.

another slacking day! ><
was totally pissed ytd.
manager called me to work on thur n fri.
i alr got plans but still, thanks to my mum, i said i can work
smsed friends saying im not free
and guess wad.
the next moment the manager called to say work cancelled! wth?!?
and i have to sms again saying things go back to original as planned.lols
good thing is i juz changed to unlimited sms=)
cheers!!! haha.
going down for a telemarketing part time interview on fri.
if it works and the event coordinator job i emailed works too,
cum the tuition, i'll just quit my current job.
who cares abt the cert now when im wasting my time.
watching at money getting out of my pocket.
do u realise how much money i could have earned by now if im working?
LOLS! ppl. pls ask me out before release of a lvl results.><
if not i might juz emo at hm during the whole of mar. lols!

hmm. i guess im so free everyday to jus blog. haha!
thanks to my stupid job><
well, but im gladly to it in a way tt i can relax.
can slp till anytime tt i want.
can slim down by staying at hm since there isnt food. lols!
but. staying at home = 0 income. -.-
going to astons to celebrate my mum's bdae.
my family is gg down to dhoby ghaut! so surprising!
coz my dad avoids city areas since it is diff to park his car.
and he is goin to change his hp today.
using MY plan! =(
argh. blame myself for losing tt nokia hp tt i signed with his contract.
my current hp is ok
but it would be better if the cover didnt drop~...
i guess this is purely human nature huh?
to always ask for more. thats y we can nvr be satisfied.

looking at other ppl's blog it makes me wonder...
my blog is so boring huh? haha
it has like no content?
but why do ppl post so many comments and views on their blog?
wld it change anything after they post it?
i doubt so. so to me there isnt a point.
yea. i shall stick to my style of writing. haha!
argh. A lvl results are coming out!
deep in my heart, i cant wait.
i wna know my results asap to plan my future.
but on the other hand, i hope it will nvr be out.
coz im afraid and i fear failure.
if i didnt do well, will i hide myself frm my friends?
maybe i will, naybe i wont. i dont know
i cant predict my results can i?

OH man. i'm into songs now><
esp korean love songs.
finished autumn concerto. nice ep this wk!
and its going to end real soon.
finished k.0 3anguo also. nice twist n ep!
but its going to end too.
hmm...which show shld i watch? argh. i duno. hias.
i guess im going to apply for PDL soon.
which means driving lessons are gna start real soon!!!
scared? excited? i dunno.
talking abt love songs, i rmb the sunday sch lesson ytd.
also talking abt love.
mei li lao shi say we shld pray for our lovers.
and tt GOD wants us to have a partner.
but i guess i might have to let GOD down somehow?
wen yi agreed with me abt this too! lols.
i believe we can be happy without partners too. cant we?
this wk im not intending to work. planned activities for the whole wk alr! ><
and my friends who were supposed to work gt their work cancelled.
due to unforeseen circumstances huh? LOLS!
juz admit the poor management part lar. LOLS!
ohh not to forget.
HAPPY B"DAY MAMA! ><
though we dont celebrate her bdae but tts wad she wants. haha.
my mum hates bdae. and i guess i know why.
thinking abt me turning 20, i dont wish to celebrate my bdae alr.
not to mention it when my mum is alr starting with 40+. haha!
argh. mad has to admit. i hate to grow old><

it's just another day, i supposed? haha
went to work ytd...o.O?
coz my manager called me at 12 to ask if i can work from 3 onwards.
since i was bored, i agreed.
and i think he got to think tt im his dog ehh?
he called again today asking me to go.
but i said cant, i got church.
im not 24hr on standby waiting for u ok?!?
lols. but work was ok ytd.
though i grp with the super irritating vulgar guy,
he didnt mention any vulgar words.
and was rather nice. i think becoz its night time
ppl are friendly n nice when they dont have to wake up early ehh? hehe
admire bx,eve and gwen tt they can work for 4 days this wk.
life is unfair isnt it?
those who wana work cant get work, the rest got filled with work.
hias. who cares anyway? ><
anyway, i guess a lot of ppl are trying to say im not ugly ehh?
did i mention i was ugly? i mentioned maybe.
haha. so take away the ugly, i shall say MAD is average looking kay? =)
seriously bored at hm.
thinking of taking korean classes and driving asap! ><

yes! mad finished her drama! and now she is bored. lols
ohh. there is this song tt i really like in this drama!
it's called without a word.
shall change it to my blog song><
below is the lyrics.
well, i didnt translate myself so i duno hw accurate the translation is. =D

Without a word
I shldn't have done that
I should have just ignored it
I shld have pretended not to know, like i couldnt see it
I nvr should have looked for you in the first place
I shld have ran away
I shld have pretended not to listen
Like i didnt hear it, like i couldnt hear it
I shldnt have listened to ur love at all

Chorus
Without a word, you let me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
You made me hold my breath,
but you ran away like this
without a word, love leaves me
without a word, love tossed me away
thinking of wad to say nxt,
my lips were surprised on their own,
it came without a word.

Why does it hurt so much?
why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that i cant see you anymore
and that you're not here anymore
otherwise, it'll be the same as before

Without a word, tears start falling down
without a word, my heart is broken in pieces
without a word, i waited for love
without a word, i'm hurting because of u
i've become invisible
i became a fool, cause i cry just by looking at the sky
without a word, i was hurt by goodbye
without a word, the end comes towards me
my heart was surprised
to send you away unexpectedly
it came without a word

without a word, love appears
without a word, love disappears
like a fever from before maybe all i have to do,
is hurt for a while,
because in the end, scars are only left behind
<3<3<3

Oh my oh my...
MAD is insane alr.
im staying put in front of the computer for the whole day watching kdrama!
you're beautiful is such an awesone show~! ><
<3<3<3
super humourous and funny! muhahaha!
so i guess another day is gg to pass like this.
jiayou for those in poly! study hard kae? ><

It's just another cny...
I guess as we grow older, it becomes more boring during cny.
why? because the adults start to ask a lot of qn tt we dont like to ans.
so many ppl were asking me abt my A lvl result.
hello. its not even out yet!?!
then they will ask which uni i wana go to...
well, i cant decide until my results are out.
worst still, i might nt be able to get into uni! =(
do i have a bf?
well, i guess they are anxious but to their disappointment, i only have gf=)
maybe im too fierce or too ugly for guys. haha.
i dont usually agree with my mum but i agreed with wad she said ytd.
she said that new year is the period of time where we see who has the best acting skills. lols.
going ard door to door saying "HAPPY CNY!" when we dont really mean it.
The true purpose of CNY seems to be lost, isnt it???

Mad is SUPER irritated today! argh!!!
notice that i BOLD the word SUPER.
wad if i add on to say that i guess im quitting my job soon?
i guess ur shld knw why im angry huh?

early in the morning, i got paired up with a guy to operate the carts.
how wld u feel if u were me?
hearing someone scolding the f word as though it was a greeting...
i heard like 20 times of f word in just 10 mins? lols
i hate it when ppl use that word. lols
is that word so nice to use? dont they knw something abt respect?

thats not all, i guess i cant interact with their attitude coz of diff characters.
the best part was, almost all the managers or so called head was...
i've never met superiors that i am soooooo pissed and irritated with.
their way of working is seriously so... ...argh.
the working environment might be nice, despite the hot sun.
some of the ppl there are ok.
but the system there is truely...
i wana find a job tt will maximise my time to earn $.
nt a job tt wld stay at hm to wait for calls to start work for like only 2 days a wk? LOLS.

Its just ANOTHER day. lols.
woke up in the morning like 3am? haha
coz the weather is simply TOO HOT! lols.
and i had a hard time forcing myself to get back to slp.
Zzz. uploaded photos for blogshop.
did some adver. browse the internet and here i am.
nothing to do. lols
i wonder if my partner is advertising the bs too?
waiting for my sis to end sch then go shop shop.
i think my job is in a mess lar! Zzz...
at this rate, i cant earn enuff $$$ to support myself, let alone for driving.
see how it goes bah. i might juz get a new job after release of A lvl results.
going to work tmr. hope its gna be fun><

another day without work...
woke up super early today! 6.30AM!=O
brought aman to work, since fate has it that she has taken over my prev position at SLA. haha!
the agent did called me to ask if i wana work there, but i rejected it.
and....aman got the job! haha.
kindof miss the ppl and environment there actually.
no hot sun. nice people and $$$ to earn.
not like now. either slack at hm or go out...
no $$$$ earn still have to spend $$$ instead. argh!
bx is the only one in the clique who is working.
and she says they are gg to fire some ppl coz they uploaded photos onto fb!
...*Oh Oh!~* pray hard its nt me. haha.

bought lotsa make-up ytd, spent like 75 bucks? haha
thanks to my cousin.
who keep saying tt a 19 yr old girl MUST knw hw to make-up.
Zzzz. why must life be so difficult for girls.
we alr gt moodswing and week of torture that comes every mth.
still have to restrict diet to keep figure.
now still have to do some "editing" on our face.
lols. why do we have so many things to do?!?
maybe the divide btw males and females are not fair at all! ><

another day without work...
actually its good, to stay at hm and RELAX.
but my mum juz wants me to work, work and work.
so she nag and nag and nag.
under this kind of torture, i cant wait for rws to call me down for work.
best if it is 5-6days a wk. lols!

was finding ppl to go out with me ytd.
thot i wld be shopping alone but thank goodness wynee was free=D
but shopping with wynee is like...a challenge? haha
cannot buy white, black and grey clothes! oh man.
thats like, the colours tt dominate my wardrobe? ><
and she asked me to try flora clothes with her.
i did try one. but....erm. too girly for me lar. haha!
but wynee is lucky. she will be the one and only to see me wearing flora.
then we talked, chatted and walked.
bought a blue dress and a top for cny.
wanted to get a biker's jacket but i thought...forget it.
i wont get the chance to wear it often. lols.
saw this super chio wallet at bhg...
guess the price... ... its $119!
oh man. i guess my taste is getting 'better'><

well, some thoughts triggered my mind before i met wynee.
i dunno if i shld feel glad or disappointed with my friend.
duno if she thinks im gullible or something.
but to be frank, i arent gullible.
im juz soft-hearted. i might look strong, but im not.
i might look smart, but im not.
there are times that i will feel scared, lonely and miserable.
but im lucky to be able to hide it well.
im gd at hiding my emotions.
i really dunno wad can i do to help but i cant bear to see my friend going deeper into this kind of thing.
many friends ask me to stay away from such things and leave tt friend.
coz someone who pulled u into this isnt going to be a gd friend.
but my heart says no. i shld help.
but GOD, tell me how can i help?...

Argh...why do i have such a poor health?
lols. after the big ulcers, running nose n sore throat makes me feel worse.
thank goodness i dont really have to work these few days!
oh well, if my ulcer fails to get smaller after drinking all those super bitter herbal tea and applying those powder and cream, i guess im goin to slim down soon.
coz i start to eat lesser each day becoz of the tremendous pain in my mouth.
been spending these few days uploading photos in my blogshop.
so many photos... i upload until i sort of gave up.
haha. lazy mad. lols
oh yeah. the good news is I PASS MY BTT! ><
nth to be proud of actually, coz a lot of my friends alr passed it.
haha. well well, i have to wait for bx before i can start to learn practical><
hmm... i went to tour my workplace with my friends on tues and we took a couple of photos.
i doubt i can post it here so if u wana take a look, pls go facebook bah.
my friend shld upload it pretty soon=D