shld i lose myself in the midst of achieving good results?
does having good results reflect how good u are?

being in this sch for one year plus, what i learnt is most ppl who got high marks are those who dont care about their face, lose their morales and values to go all out to boot lick profs.
Is that what the society values?
shld i follow suit or stay close to my values?

Everything seems aimless.
Is there anything that is achievable?
This week is a bad wk because a lot of things happened.
But I'm glad that all these happened because it made me certain of who are my true friends.
Nothing is fixed in this world. Everything is a variable.
Learn to accept facts. Studying is not about grades.
It's about exploring things not known before.
Hopefully I can learn to accept this mentality.

Im holding back my tears because I promised myself I wont cry over results.
Life is unfair, that's something I have to learn to accept.
Fake up a smile and continue ur day cause there is nothing I can do to change anything

Latest timing is out today.
Because the groupings are by results, everyone is looking at it to see who are the pros and the lousier ones in their groups.
That hurts, when im at the bottom.
Hearing how others comment that their grades are cui when mine is worse leaves me speechless.
Wanting to help but lack the knowledge n capability leaves me speechless.
Maybe that's the reason why i don't seem to have the courage to class part.
I think i sucked at everything, so why am i still in this course?
Trying hard to pull my marks up every sem but everything seems furtile
Would hardwork really pay off?

I thank GOD, for the peace that he has given me.
that i am able to rest and feel relax despite the heavy workload.
to be able to plan my sch work and tuition work well.
next wk will be my battle. the battle to decide my midterm grades.
GOD, please guide my way.

the definition of happiness simply changes with age.
remember the days when we are still wearing diapers, happiness is being able to be well fed and loved by our parents.
when we start to attend preschools and primary schools, happiness means getting ur fav toys or being able to join your friends to play at the playground.
when we start our teenage days, the definition of happiness starts to evolve here.
not only do we want to have fun with our friends, we also seek for material wants.
its the beginning of days where money would start to bring happiness.
when u start university, happiness involves a spectrum of things.
results, money, material wants, friends, good relationship partner, nice family...
the list just gets longer and longer.
but i realise that when one gets old, happiness seems to get much simpler again.
happiness at old age simply comes with good health.

so if happiness can be easily achieved, why are we so greedy to keep new definition to make happiness further away from us?
the choice of HAPPINESS is in your hands.

Ahh! So freaking stress!
There are so many things to do, yet so little time.
Have to revise my work before wk 7 tests come but I simply have no time.
Worse is I suck in coding and cat and these are the mods being tested! Zzz.
And I have to draw out so many things today. All the ct mindmaps. Zzz.
I seriously need a well deserved break after this sem.