Dear GOD...

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me pass my driving test on next monday.
because if i dont, i know i'll be utterly depressed.
this may affect my ltb's presentation on mon too...
i know my parents are concerned abt me.
they want me to pass the test and i wana pass it myself too!
i've alr been feeling so stupid since i got into uni.
pls let me pass this to save a bit of self-esteem.
the days have changed and uni life is no longer relaxing anymore.
sometimes i think that the stress level is so high that i could hardly breathe.
making friends seems to be so tough and not to mention speaking up in class.
i feel as though there is glue that stuck my lips tgther in class.
as we grow older, the stress lvl only seems to get higher.
WHEN will we get to start enjoying our lives?

Today marks the end of the first wk of sch.
wad i can say is that uni ppl are all very competitive!
so before u step in, pls be mentally prepared...
i wonder wad are the CCAs which i shld join, since there are 135 for me to choose frm.
maybe life is gonna get more busy, tougher as days pass...
since all the exams deadlines and presentations are like drawing near.
wk 4 wk 5 wk 6...seems like there is still a lot of time, but it isnt.
hopefully i cn make more friends, join some real awesome CCA and cope well with my sch work.
the rest of the troubles, i'll leave them all to GOD...

the hardest bond on earth to be forged is called friendship.
the laughter, the jokes, the fun...
i hope that this friendship will last.
hopefully it can survive as time pass...

SENSITIVITY...

sometimes i feel that some ppl are just so insensitive to other's feelings.
maybe u are feeling super happy, but u cant assume that everyone is happy.
just that things tat u like, others might not like it.
it all depends on the individual thinking and perception...
today the feeling of failure is once again back,
cause my own wound has been rubbed with salt.
it sucks to get reminded of the taste of failure,
who likes that kind of feelings anyway.
many times u jus feel like finding someone to talk to,
but afterall u will get the same cliche replies.
many times i took out my hp,
typed a long msg that depicts my feelings,
but when it reaches recipents, i dunno who to send it too.
in the end, everything jus end up being deleted.
the feeling of lonely, despair and sadness.
who can understand this?

Great, i had a nice time enjoying both my hols and my camps..
nw, its time to be back in the reality!
had my first enrichment course today...
seriously, i doubt i understand anything at all!
the switch frm learning abt years to cells to a com is HUGE!
now is the time i have to learn all the foreign comp language,
look at every SMALL detail such as CAPS, bracket etc.
Damn, my four years down the road dont seem easy!
i was thinking if i shld take up the work study grant,
but i think maybe i shldnt,
since the first year of uni life is gonna be tough!
i'd rather spend more time on my work and on my cca!
hopefully i can study real hard, get a scholarship and stop worrying abt sch fees~!
i really wish this could happen to me! =D