14 more days to A levels!!!
lols. i seemed to be getting more relaxed as A level is getting near.
maybe its because i dont seem to care abt it anymore.haha
met mr lim on my way home as i left sch.
he asked me if i still wana go for the thai volunteering trip.
hmm. if u ask me, of course i will! ><
then i went back and told my mum...
MAD: Mama, i MIGHT be goin back to thai to volunteer...
Mum: When?
MAD: End DEC? for like 10 days? =D
MUM: Siao. you might as well volunteer in singapore! there are a lot of people in need of help in singapore!
MAD: where got?
MUM: the person is sitting in front of you! so free, might as well help me by clearing your room! wana look after kids go give birth to one lar!
MAD: ... ...

sometimes my mum simply leaves me speechless...
i guess she is the only one with this skill. lols
but no matter what, as long as i have made up my mind.
no one can stop me><
though A level haven't end, i'm alr thinking of going overseas=P
and thanks to all my friends who gave me support><
thanks jy and xt for the msgs. ><
and hui for ur encouragement on msn.
i will work hard...I CAN AND I WILL ACE MY A LEVEL! ><

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO HUI AND NING!!!
hope your did receive my special gift...
that is if i didnt get the wrong add=P





feeling stressed up lately.
as A level is nearing
i feel as though i'm dying
i'm struggling to keep myself motivated and awake.
many times i feel like giving up
but i dont wana act like a coward.
i have to face the reality
and the choice that i have made.
GOD, pls bless me with the strength and courage to continue!
><

A LEVEL IS COMING! ><
buck up people.
its time to get serious.
be prepared for the better.
it will soon be over.
in another 2 months time i'll be out to party! =D
jiayou! ><

finally poly people started their sch term><

Today is such an AWESOME day!!!
i OFFICIALLY GRADUATED from NANYANG JUNIOR COLLEGE!><
had such a fun time taking photos today~!
the video made by the teachers were simply AWESOME~!
I laughed like crazy><
and i have to thank my friends for the lovely card!!!=D








me and my church friends! ><









with my funny principal mr kwek! =D









my civics tutor ms tan! =D









lovely bio teachers mr quek and mr neo! =D









My SLC friends! ><









my lovely clique! still got some ppl missing=P









My JC buddy elaine! =D










my PW group! 'the one and ONLY photo'=P









Class DINNER at astons for the GIRLS><









picture with the 'BOOMZ'! haha><
















Life in NYJC will never be the same without your.
the fun, joy and laughter will always be remembered.
we laugh together, study together and gossip together.
these are precious memories that GOD has given me.
I'll treasure this wonderful memories><
I'll miss NYJC and you guys! =)
Thanks for the card and the wonderful msgs.
they will always be remembered deep down in my heart=D
and for those that we didnt get the chance to take photos today...
we still have PROM NIGHT! ><

hias. i'm sick again...
stupid flu! go away!!!
i hate having running nose=(

MAD! pls stop sleeping!
argh!!! i wanted to come home and start studying bio
in the end, i slept for one whole afternoon!
met wynee on my way home.
and she still sms me to tell me to keep myself frm falling aslp!
indeed, i'm such a pig!
oh man,how can i stop myself from slpin...
feeling so guilty now.
my classmates are starting to work hard alr...
how do i knw?
they booked consultation slots like everyday for almost all subj!
so i shldnt let myself slack.
work hard! buck up!
its really very competitive in sch now.
where ppl tend to hide that they are studying.
why do they even have to hide?
everyone has to study at this period of time.
there is nth wrong to study now.
its time for the survival of the fittest.

" Have i not commanded you? Be strong and courageous.
Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged,
for the LORD your GOD will be within you wherever you go."
-Joshua 1:9





Happy Birthday WAN LING~ =)
ohh.and thank you hui for ur encouragement ytd.
I WILL work hard=)
jiayou jiayou jiayou!

24 more days...
went for econs camp early in the morning. lols
then i went to golden mile with ah girl and jas.
checked the price for holiday in malaysia.
wow! it isnt cheap to travel! =(
so many place tt i haven been before. hias
then i went to ps to meet bi xia.
xt ask me to meet her for dinner but i chose to acc my family. haHA
ohh. went to archade with bi xia
i managed to play till stage 4 for basketball with her!
played drum too and the both of us were so tired.
went for dinner and came home to watch KO.3anguo.
ep 33 is super exciting! ><
i cant wait for the next ep=)

i knw i shld have studied but i didnt.
lets treat this as my last break.
and i shall start to work towards my goal.
SMU here i come!

the week ended. leaving 25 days to A lvls.
i'm not yet prepared!!! =(
got back econs paper ytd. It was a utter disappointment.
despite the hardwork i spent studyin essay, it didnt improve at all!
i didnt study for case study and it ended up improving. lols
maybe wad TK says is correct.
i shldnt have studied.
if i just slp earlier and studied less, i might have scored better.
which sounds true. lols
tmr still got econs camp...argh.
need to wake up early in the morning. cant even have a nice day of rest.
i have so many things to do, but so little time.
what can i expect out of my A lvl?

Dear GOD, pls look after all of us.
those who are having EOY, O lvl and A lvl.
your support is what that can pull ur through this ordeal.
i place my trust in you.
i'll accept the results that you have planned for me.
though i might grumble but i knw you shld knw what is the best route for me...

25 days to A lvl!
time is running out. madmad must jiayou!
to think i still went out for dinner with my cousins ytd.
but yeah, i did a good deed by teaching wenwen jiejie how to do her marketing project...
when i dunno anything abt marketing. haha
nvr learnt it before so i used my econs knowledge to hlp her.
hope i didnt harm her. lols.
but marketing seems fun^^
in the end i had to stay up till 1am to TRY to complete my hw. Zzz
today is the start of the new timetable.
i only had 2 lectures so ended sch pretty early=)
its hard to imagine...that i am graduating from JC next FRI!
its just 10 days later. woah.
i'm ending my JC life soon...
i always complain that i dont like JC life but i think i'm gonna miss it when i graduate...
ohh. mr quek gave us a momento today!
the bio teachers took a neoprint that they pasted it on a ruler that they gave us.
so nice of them^^
i am touched by their moves.
though i am bad at bio, i don regret taking this sub cause the teachers are so nice and funny! no lesson is better than this!
and thank you jas for the encouragement on the post-it that i nearly threw away=P

my classmates says that with my new haircut,
i look like xiao wan zi. lols
reminds me of the lit proj tt i did with ning in sec 2.
haha. well at least ppl say i look 10 years younger..
so practically i look like a 8 year old kid^^
which means i dont look like a 'mother' anymore.=)

another day passed...
its getting closer and closer to A lvl! ><
i feel so dead. have no confidence to do well for this exam...
and i'm gonna take my exam in a month's time!!!
stayed in sch till 8 today.
well, me and jas got a new name for ms!
his name shall be called 'ah girl' from now on.><
nice name that suits his character. haha!
well, i dont really like to study with him cause i dunno if he noticed, that his words can cause a great deal of hurt to me.
esp when he always say blah blah qn so easy, mad how come u dunno how to solve?!?
oh well, u think i dont wana know how to solve the qn?
u think i like to be so dumb?
u think i enjoy getting stuck while doin qn? argh!
i seriously feel that i am getting stupid.
last time he was the one who wld ask me qn...
now it became the other way round. =(


actually i like the feeling of scoring well, to get the 1 in class...
but for everything, there is a price to pay.
i scored the highest for chem this prelim in my class,
and ppl are all saying that i'm chem pro, i'm gd at chem
but the fact is, i am not gd at chem too!
1 in class but 197 in cohort...is this good?
i feel that i did very badly, but i cant say this to my class ppl.
not tt i am proud but because i dont wana demoralise them.
i know there are ppl who study harder than me.
but still fail chem and some other subjects.
to them my results aresuper good..
but to me, it sucks.
it isnt up to my expectation yet.
say i'm greedy, i admit i am.
like what ms poh said before,
students are all greedy and selfish
because we are all snatching and fighting for A
who dosent want A? we are living in this society that your future is dependent on your reults.
and there is no room for failure.
once you fail, your future would be gone.
so if i cant get into Uni, wher would i go?...

Ps. i added my old tagboard back...since my cousin says that she got no place to comment. lols

its sunday! haha. so i bet you all know wher i was...
went to church in the morning as usual. haha
then i went to my grandma hse. had lunch with my cousins^^
watched the repeat telecast of fann wong's wedding.
i didnt knw she spent 5m on the wedding! o.O
but maldives is a very nice place^^
i dont mind goin there in future...
was doin maths but i kept getting stuck. Zzz
so in a moment of anger, i decided to cut my hair!
esp my fringe of coz, and i cut bangs. haha
sry to my friends. i knw all of u have waited long to see me in long hair...
but the hair simply irritates me! so i had no choice but to...
CUT IT! haha ><
i knw caiyi is goin to say i promise her etc...
but luckily she wont see me until the nxt time my hair grows longer! ><
my aunt treated us to a sumptuous dinner today!
i was so FULL until i could hardly walk...lols
think my tummy is getting bigger! need to slim down><


hias, didnt study much today...i need the momentum. wher can i find it?
i need the motivation. wher is it?
teacher shenping taught us the chapt of habbakuk today...
i find the chpt relevant to today's context.
the chpt says that why is god so unfair,
that there are ppl suffering from various aftermath of disasters...
the elderly who survives on begging and collecting cardboards...
children born in third world countries that cant even have a proper meal...
but there are bad ppl who exhort money and have luxurious lifestyle...
but these are just the plans of GOD.
he haven revealed his plan to us...
the poor will suffer now, but will receive riches in heaven in recognition of their undying faith,
but the rich will enjoy the riches now, and suffer in hell when they die...
GOD is always fair in his ways that we do not know^^

argh! i cant study in the afternoon..
Zzz. keep falling aslp...
i slept at 9 ytd. didnt even manage to complete any work.
woke up early today. went to sch for the extra chem lesson.
well. i did finish the jjc paper.
but i scored the same marks as i did for my prelim paper! lols
that means i had forgotten what i had studied. Zzz
well, mrs wong said sth that is very true today
"in a few months time you are goin to take a test that will determine your future."
yea, it determines if i will or will not enter a uni!
and ms poh said sth very true ytd too...
"In singapore, your results reflect a lot abt you. If you can score well, then you have a bright future. If not, say bye bye to your future..."
hias. life is sad. its all abt studying.
i need to aim high.
i wana score all As and Bs!
i need to work hard to achieve my goals! ><


i need motivation. who can help me to regain my confidence for maths? this subj seems so hopeless to me all of a sudden. maybe i am very careless. or maybe i shld stop finding excuses when i dont score well...maybe i shld start to buck up now.

had a short day in sch^^
wanted to go home and start studying but i ended up taking a LONG nap..
Zzz. slp slp slp. i guess thats my hobby. lols
mrs tan went through our maths p1 today.
if there is a knife in class, i guess i'll juz stab myself!
key in value can key wrongly, copy qn can copy wrongly,
round off to 3sf also round off wrongly!
Zzzz. think i had a lack of slp on tt day of exam...
for gp, i thot my grammer had improved since my essay was quite clean,
only had 3 'g', but when my cher went through compre today,
i realised that i had 20+ 'g' in p2! lols.
so its just a transfer of 'g', nt really an improvement.
the only result tt i haven got back is econs essay.
but frm the comments of the chers, i guess i wont score well..
lols. hope the case study marks can help to push it
and hopefully i can get a C! hopefully><
if nt my rank pt wld be freaking low!
i seriously dont wanna fall into the grp tt jel said.
the grp tt fall into the average,
wher we cant enter uni nor retain. Zzz
i feel that i can do better. yes i can.
i must start to build up my confidence!
hopefully aman can gain back her confidence.
if GOD permits, i would pass her my optimistic character.
so that she can learn to face things with optimism and nt with tears.
this is the darkest period of all our lives,
where our days are filled with stress and homeworks.
but we must learn to be optimistic=)


IF time can turn back, i promised tt i will study harder for my prelims...esp maths.
this is the period of time where the encouragement from family and friends will pull us through the tides.